Weaving Worlds: Vulnerability Around Playing Big

I am in this place of facing two worlds. The world where money doesn't matter and I can do anything I want, with the world of scarcity and poverty and a place where judgment and criticism are abound (in my experience). I'm a very sensitive being, perhaps that is why I spent most of my 20's hiding who I really was, hiding that I made 6-figures, owned property, ect. hiding my opinions, hiding the real me...the list goes on and on.

I so deeply wanted to fit in and didn't know where I'd find that. I became immensely involved in transformational festivals where the trend is scarcity. It was very challenging for me to be me there because of what I had in my bank account...I couldn't talk about those things with most people...But I kept trying to fit in, again and again.

And as I write this, I'm not saying that I have it all figured out now, but I do know is that I've found more people resonant with what I was hiding in my 20's...and that is a sigh of relief...

But the truth is... I'm here to bridge worlds and I'm here to take a stand for everyone as best I can. If I can respect you, I hope you can respect me. We all have amazing gifts in the world and we all are important...and I find it so hard when people judge me for being big.

Honestly, I'm not that much different from anyone else. We all desire the same things...to be loved, heard, accepted, connected...all of it.

And that I don't want to place judgment on others for what they have or don't have, but I want to stand in a place where everyone is one, we are united, no matter what, if you so choose. I have a lot to give in this world, I have a lot of love to give, and I want to keep sharing it with everyone that wants to receive it.

And... I hid so much from who I was in my 20's that I was SO intimidated, scared, nervous...by the true me. What I mean by that is the me that actually shined in the world...that showed their bigness, their strength, their ambitions. I felt so much more comfortable in a place of hiding because it didn't allow room for judgement, for questioning... I never wanted to be put on the spot for why I did what I did...

And I'm stepping into this place where I have to be OK with whatever criticism, judgement, and whatever else is to come.

It's all going to be OK...

It's just so sad when you start to shine more how it feels "not ok".

It's no wonder people quit their dreams sometimes.

But I want to change that.
And I don't know how I can at an emotional level thus far.
But I do know I want to try.

If you resonate with any of this please do not hesitate to reach out.

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May All Beings Be Happy and Free.

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